4 Years...4 Years?!

Today Brennan turned four. I can't believe that he's four already. I know I'll probably be typing the same thing when he's five, then six, then sixty (yes, I do plan on living until 89...at least! :0). It's one of those things you always hear but don't really get much until your doing it - time does go by quickly with your kids. One minute they're crapping through their diapers, the next minute they're crapping through their underwear. Well, I guess there's comfort in consistency :0).

Seriously, Brennan is getting to be such a big boy. Putting on his own clothes, picking up after himself, telling me not to talk with my mouth full. It's just so neat to watch an entire person form before your eyes. To see him grow physically is cool, but really it's the growth I've seen in how he thinks and perceives things. How thoughtful he is. How he wants to take care of Aidan and offers to "watch" him while I take a shower.

It's also been wonderful to watch his spiritual growth. To have him asking questions about God and even teaching me profound things in his own words is such . For instance, today I was trying to take a shower and had Aidan locked in the bedroom with me. We have a master bath off our bedroom and so I shut the door and took one of my fastest showers ever. All the while, I'm thinking, "please don't let him pull the dresser down on himself" or "don't eat my diamond earrings that are in the box that he could grab off the dresser and easily pry open in seconds." All these things are going through my head and then I just wished I had Brennan in there to play with Aidan. Two minutes 23 seconds later, I open the door and Brennan is sitting there playing with his brother. So I told him he was an answer to prayer because I was worried about Aidan. He said, "Mommy, you shouldn't be surprised. You know God is here." Wow.

So now, my little "baby" is four years old. Brennan and I watched the special video Don and I made about him during his first year and I was not trying to blubber the entire time. I already miss that. But I am truly excited to see what this next year will hold and what new things I'll learn from him.

I Won't Give Up Yet!

Okay, I decided I'll keep it up and use this for 15 minutes of "me" time too. Or throw a note up when I can. So....what to write about today?.. Well, we had our first snow today! I was so excited to wake up this morning and see snowflakes falling and sticking! It was as if the Christmas season was being ushered in. So we'll have our annual "Snow Party" today. We usually make paper snowflakes and then bake snowflake-shaped cookies or something. Of course, now later in the day, the snow is gone. Hopefully, it'll come again soon. If it's going to be cold, I want something to show for it.


These were the good ol' days.


On another note, my smallest child is not sleeping, as usual. He's not been taking his afternoon naps and it's driving me crazy. Oh, I still put him up in bed and yesterday after an hour of being up there he fell asleep. He doesn't cry the whole time but off and on he whines and hearing that is also maddening. The funny growling noises he makes are good though. I think this means it's time to cut out the morning nap. I did this the other day as a trial. He did sleep in the afternoon, but I dealt with gremlin baby the whole morning. So, I guess I need to figure out what's more important. Gremlin baby or complete "alone" time, gremlin baby or complete "alone" time. I know for right now, I need an oreo. :0)

Should I Even Bother?

I don't know how you do it. I keep trying and trying and failing miserably - that is, in keeping my blog updated. How do you guys get the chance to type out a wonderful entry while balancing kids, chores, jobs, more chores, and "you" time? You pretty much amaze me. So I'm grappling with whether or not I should just close this site down and be done with it. I don't know if people even read this...maybe I'm talking to myself here....

Up Way Too Late

The time on the computer clock reads 2:44am. Yes, I'm still up. My mom left tonight, I was paying bills and searching online for a job. I know this isn't the best time to do these things, but honestly I sometimes don't know when else I could do it. I guess I need to take a time management course someday when I have time. Right now, I just need to get to bed...

Not Sure What I Just Did

I want my blog to look more "put together" like some of my other friends. However, all I found was just changing the template and I'm not so sure what I need to do to increase my aestetics. Keeks, Juj, T-Rex some help, please?

The Unassailable Logic of a Three-Year-Old

Here's a conversation Brennan had today with the nursery worker at church:

Michelle - "Brennan, do you need to go to the bathroom?"
Brennan - "No."
Michelle - "Well, maybe Thomas on your underwear needs to go pee."
Brennan - "But Thomas doesn't have a penis."
Michelle - "Does your penis need to go pee?"
Brennan - "No, but my testicles might."
Michelle - "Do your testicles need to go pee?"
Brennan - "No, they don't have a penis."

There you have it, folks!

Missing My Friends and Family

I've really been missing my friends and family a lot lately - those that aren't nearby, that is. I got to talk with a couple of good friends from seminary today and though it wasn't very long, but the laughter came easy and the love that I have in my heart for them just longed to give them big hugs. I've been very bad at keeping in touch lately: calling people, checking emails, updating my blog, and notoriously going on Facebook.

I've been trying to figure out the problem and I honestly don't know what it is. I mean sure, I have two kids that are little and church activities or other social obligations, but so does everyone else and they seem to go on Facebook every day. So I'm trying again. I think I need to have a set time that I do computer stuff. A specific hour a day could be good. I think part of my problem is I always feel something pulling at me and I feel bad being on the computer when my laundry is out of control, dishes are piled up, and dust bunnies are watching Ni-hao Kai-lan with Brennan. I'm not going to give up though, so please, dear friends and family, don't give up on me either. Please know you are loved so very much - even if I'm not online.