I Won't Give Up Yet!

Okay, I decided I'll keep it up and use this for 15 minutes of "me" time too. Or throw a note up when I can. So....what to write about today?.. Well, we had our first snow today! I was so excited to wake up this morning and see snowflakes falling and sticking! It was as if the Christmas season was being ushered in. So we'll have our annual "Snow Party" today. We usually make paper snowflakes and then bake snowflake-shaped cookies or something. Of course, now later in the day, the snow is gone. Hopefully, it'll come again soon. If it's going to be cold, I want something to show for it.


These were the good ol' days.


On another note, my smallest child is not sleeping, as usual. He's not been taking his afternoon naps and it's driving me crazy. Oh, I still put him up in bed and yesterday after an hour of being up there he fell asleep. He doesn't cry the whole time but off and on he whines and hearing that is also maddening. The funny growling noises he makes are good though. I think this means it's time to cut out the morning nap. I did this the other day as a trial. He did sleep in the afternoon, but I dealt with gremlin baby the whole morning. So, I guess I need to figure out what's more important. Gremlin baby or complete "alone" time, gremlin baby or complete "alone" time. I know for right now, I need an oreo. :0)

Should I Even Bother?

I don't know how you do it. I keep trying and trying and failing miserably - that is, in keeping my blog updated. How do you guys get the chance to type out a wonderful entry while balancing kids, chores, jobs, more chores, and "you" time? You pretty much amaze me. So I'm grappling with whether or not I should just close this site down and be done with it. I don't know if people even read this...maybe I'm talking to myself here....

Up Way Too Late

The time on the computer clock reads 2:44am. Yes, I'm still up. My mom left tonight, I was paying bills and searching online for a job. I know this isn't the best time to do these things, but honestly I sometimes don't know when else I could do it. I guess I need to take a time management course someday when I have time. Right now, I just need to get to bed...

Not Sure What I Just Did

I want my blog to look more "put together" like some of my other friends. However, all I found was just changing the template and I'm not so sure what I need to do to increase my aestetics. Keeks, Juj, T-Rex some help, please?

The Unassailable Logic of a Three-Year-Old

Here's a conversation Brennan had today with the nursery worker at church:

Michelle - "Brennan, do you need to go to the bathroom?"
Brennan - "No."
Michelle - "Well, maybe Thomas on your underwear needs to go pee."
Brennan - "But Thomas doesn't have a penis."
Michelle - "Does your penis need to go pee?"
Brennan - "No, but my testicles might."
Michelle - "Do your testicles need to go pee?"
Brennan - "No, they don't have a penis."

There you have it, folks!

Missing My Friends and Family

I've really been missing my friends and family a lot lately - those that aren't nearby, that is. I got to talk with a couple of good friends from seminary today and though it wasn't very long, but the laughter came easy and the love that I have in my heart for them just longed to give them big hugs. I've been very bad at keeping in touch lately: calling people, checking emails, updating my blog, and notoriously going on Facebook.

I've been trying to figure out the problem and I honestly don't know what it is. I mean sure, I have two kids that are little and church activities or other social obligations, but so does everyone else and they seem to go on Facebook every day. So I'm trying again. I think I need to have a set time that I do computer stuff. A specific hour a day could be good. I think part of my problem is I always feel something pulling at me and I feel bad being on the computer when my laundry is out of control, dishes are piled up, and dust bunnies are watching Ni-hao Kai-lan with Brennan. I'm not going to give up though, so please, dear friends and family, don't give up on me either. Please know you are loved so very much - even if I'm not online.

Three Years Ago Today...

So of course I gotta start off my post like this. Because in all honesty it is truly unbelievable that Brennan is three years old today. Sure every mom says this when her little one has a birthday...because it's the truth. In many ways, the three years seems like it has gone so slow because a million other things have happened: we were in the middle of seminary, the process of getting a job, graduating from seminary, me leaving a job, leaving good friends, moving, meeting new friends, oh and the birth of a second child just to name a few.

On the other hand, it seems like these three years have flown by. Sometimes, I look at my "big" boy and I have a vision of him taking his first steps or I'm trying to remember when he couldn't talk. And with Aidan looking so much like Brennan as a baby I feel like I have deja vu all the time. We sat down with Brennan the other day and watched the DVD we made of his first year of life (Christmas present to all the grandparents back in '06 - definitely recommend doing this) and he loved seeing himself as a baby. He kept wanting to watch more "episodes." And of course, I'm beside him blubbering.

It happens so quickly. However, as much as I miss seeing him as a baby, I love getting to know him more as a person. All the clever things he says, his little facial expressions, his big heart, how he's learning - all of these things are what makes it get better. So I'll cherish the past, soak in the present, and look forward to what he'll be like in the future. After all, he is one one cool little man.